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Tue, 01 Aug 2023Anniversary Message
It is our 21st wedding anniversary, and my wife just gave me a puzzle in the form of a
The beads run like this, starting from the decorative knot that lets you
Now, there are two easy possibilities off the top of my head. It might be a
or that sequence backwards, with all the bits flipped, or both. But any way you do that,
That still needs to be separated out, first into individual letters and then into words, but
I was pretty fortunate that the most straightforward decoding was also the right one.
I'm also pretty fortunate to have a wife who knows I'd enjoy this so much, aren't I?
Tue, 20 Apr 2004An update of sonnet proportions
So, in the last week, I've sold my beloved 'stang, moved into a larger workspace, got a free HPLJ 5 SiMX printer, been tentatively okayed to be sent to oscon in July, and told I'll be getting a real office with a door and a window.
(The window is to the hall, but it's the thought that counts. I'm thinking of putting up translucent pictures if I can find them, landscapes or something, or maybe a coral reef.)
This weekend is Sakuracon, and I'll probably be photoblogging. Sakuracon is always a fun time. I have a couple of costumes, even, though not so adventurous as the recent Tron costume.
Physically, the return of rainy weather is kicking my ass, and the non-ambien sleep aid is not quite so effective as ambien, and certainly not as insistant. But we get by.
Sat, 13 Mar 2004A Letter from Fibromyalgia
A pice very nicely descriptive of FMS, because I'm feeling slightly whiney. Copied from sophy , who doesn't know where she got it...
A LETTER TO THE HEALTHY WORLD FROM THE LAND OF CHRONIC PAIN AND FATIGUE
If you were born with healthy genes, you may know me, but you don't understand me. I was not as lucky as you. I inherited the predisposition to chronic pain, fatigue and forgetfulness. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia (FMS) after months, years or even decades of mysterious physical and emotional problems. Because you didn't know how sick I was, you called me lazy, a malingerer, or simply ridiculous. If you have the time to read on, I would like to help you understand how different I am from you.
Sun, 29 Feb 2004Busy Cure
So Beth's had a bit of an infection, and went to the doctor. The doctor gave her a prescription for a med that can either be taken after sex to prevent recurrence, or be taken regularily for a while to cure it.
So she went to the drug store, and the pharmacist was called over to give advice on the medication. "Okay," he said, "You take one pill after sex, five times a day for four days."
So if nobody hears from me for a while...
Tue, 24 Feb 2004Mumbling
You know what's annoying? Panhandlers that /mumble/.
Mon, 29 Dec 2003Note to self: sweet dreams
Watching the whole of the miniseries "The Stand" in one go is probably not exactly conducive to restful sleep.
It's also rather bad when you come down with flu symptoms the next day.
(Oh, and the 20 issues or so of Hellblazer comics were like as not a bad plan too.)
Mon, 08 Dec 2003Chair
The people from the store came and took away my office chair today. Just a demo unit, the real one is still on order.
I was getting so used to sitting at my desk not being actively painful.Here is Wisdom
Sat, 29 Nov 2003Ethnic Studies
Mon, 24 Nov 2003Troubles with Counting and the Alphabet
So I was looking at the
Either a symptom of my clashing dyslexia and dyscalculia, or maybe just end-of-day fibrofog. I just wish I could both count and remember alphabetical order without hash collisons .
Tue, 11 Nov 2003God has fled in Miami
Miami New Times: Myths Over Miami (1997-06-05)
On Christmas night a year ago, God fled Heaven to escape an audacious demon attack -- a celestial Tet Offensive. The demons smashed to dust his palace of beautiful blue-moon marble. TV news kept it secret, but homeless children in shelters across the country report being awakened from troubled sleep and alerted by dead relatives. No one knows why God has never reappeared, leaving his stunned angels to defend his earthly estate against assaults from Hell. "Demons found doors to our world," adds eight-year-old Miguel, who sits before Andre with the other children at the Salvation Army shelter. The demons' gateways from Hell include abandoned refrigerators, mirrors, Ghost Town (the nickname shelter children have for a cemetery somewhere in Dade County), and Jeep Cherokees with "black windows." The demons are nourished by dark human emotions: jealousy, hate, fear.The mythology of Miami homeless shelter children. These are the stories they tell. The beautiful but hobbled Blue Lady can protect children, but only if they know her secret name; Bloody Mary is the one who drove out God, the one who comes from the mirror to mutilate you, the spectre of your death--to most of the children: See more ...
Thu, 30 Oct 2003Designer
For a new web project, a major project, an outside designer was brought in. She impressed the guy in charge of this one, and so she designed the site up.
And then I was given the project to finish, having been given a few screenshots.
I really have enough on my hands with this - templating system, database backend, all the behind-the-scenes stuff. But I'm the one here. So after I pleaded for actul photoshop source files to work from, I got them on Monday. Kind of a mess -- missing fonts, many layers just invisibled instead of deleted, that sort of thing. And, of course, producing web pages from photoshop -- usable, programatically driven web pages -- is just a little bit sucky.
So I'm here, in pain, and I've got a couple pages mostly working. If people don't decide to micromanage more than they have.
The demo is Monday morning.
Fri, 26 Sep 2003Handicapped Spaces
This past year, I had a reserved parking space thanks to my fibromyalgia. I asked my pain doctor for a University disability pass for this - it hurts to walk too far, and parking in always the same spot is much easier on me than either finding a parking space on campus (good luck) or riding the bus.
So this year, getting a new faculty/staff parking permit, I needed to renew this note. I called in, asking about the University's note, an got the reply, "Oh, yes, we have the form, we'll have it at the front desk."
I got there and found a signed DMV form for a disabled parking hang-tag.
I'm really not sure how to react here. It is justified, I fit the definition, and this is enough for the university to give me another space. But I'm not sure I feel... needy enough to take handicapped spaces at other venues. And it's always a little blow to the ego to admit I do need extra help. That I am disabled.
I guess I'll just keep the tag for when I really need it. Nobody's going to complain if I'm not in the disabled space.
Thu, 25 Sep 2003Chiyo-chan
More Azumanga stuff; I've been using a fun new icon on LJ:
RollingStone.com: News: Florida Band to Stage Suicide
Florida industrial rockers Hell on Earth are planning to host an on-stage suicide during their October 4th show at St. Petersburg's State Theater. A terminally ill member of a euthanasia society, whose identity and condition have not been revealed, intends to raise awareness for the cause of dying with dignity by committing suicide during the concert, according to the band's singer, Billy Tourtelot.Now, I'm somewhat in support of assisted suicide, kinda, but I'm not sure that offing yourself on-stage with a group whose "past stage stunts, according to Tourtelot, include having intercourse with cows and drinking blended rats" is really dying with dignity.
Wed, 24 Sep 2003Future fibromyalgia drugs
ABC7Chicago.com: Future of Fibromyalgia
"At least a third of the patients in both trials have experienced, roughly, a 50-percent reduction in pain," said Philip J. Mease, M.D., rheumatologist, Swedish Hospital Medical Center, Seattle, WA.Pregabalin may be approved next year, milnacipran in two. Ah, the waiting. But then one of the women in the article has waited 20 years, so.
(I'm blogging this largely to record it -- do LJ friends mind such a thing? Should I post personal mental notes to a non-LJ-mirrored area?)
Sun, 21 Sep 2003Da Vinci's Notebook
...are playing today, here at Eugene Celebration . Woo!
Fri, 12 Sep 2003Kilts
I've been seeing a lot of kilts around lately. Well, no, I've seen a couple of guys with kilts. So, kilts are getting big.
For small values of 'big'.
Tue, 09 Sep 2003Weblogging as pain diary
I'm trying to track my pain during the day. This is not very easy -- I have a tendency to just keep going and not remark on levels. As a coping mechanism it's probably okay. But as a diagnostic it leaves something to be desired.
But hey, technology, right? So I'm trying to combine pain tracking with blogging. Each weblog entry has a bit of metadata attached to it, my current pain level on the usual 0-10 scale (note that I've had about five minutes of 0 since about 1997, and that's the total of heavy medication). You normallly won't see the pain level in my postings, but if you're pathologically curious it's available at http://waxwolf.org/index.cgi/index.pain .
I hope this will help me with management. But it working depends on me blogging more. :-)
Fri, 05 Sep 2003Employment
So. I've been employed for the last while. Back in June I went full time. Web development and exploring new tech -- more or less what I did as a 2-hour a day student techie. They like my work, they like my manner, they depend on the stuff I build. They don't mind if I work from home.
And yesterday I got the offer for the real position, with full benefits. Insurance. Dental plan. Retirement fund, even.
I accepted. Yay!
Thu, 28 Aug 2003Neil Gaiman on buying books
From his journal :
Thu, 31 Jul 2003I Care
I was checking out things to download. Finding some pictures from Ruroni Kenshin, I said, "Don't care about that"; finding ones from Tenchi, I thought "I do care".
And that seems to be the crux of something. I care about a lot of things. A lot of these things seem to be fictional, particularily fictional people. I care about Huck and Jim, about Luke and Han and Chewie, about Arthur and Gawaine and Parzifal, about Willow and Xander and Buffy, about Ranma and Tenchi and Sasami and Belldandy and Sakura and Tomoyo and Shaoran and Luna and Artemis and Keitaro and Kaolla and Shinobu and Rahne and Cyclops and Cannonball, about Jake Stonebender and about Lazarus Long. I care about Tertius, and Free Luna, and the Ringworld, and the Millenium Falcon and the Tsunami.
And there are people in books but not fictional that I care very much about. I care about Anne Frank. I care about the authors who have such care for people and things themselves.
This isn't love, exactly. I don't live people's fictional lives, either; I don't believe that the fiction is fact, or the past present. Some of it, I'll admit, is that nagging note after "The End" : "And then what happened?" I care about the people, and I care about their lives--which must go on even though the story's ended. This is the sort of thing that I classify movies by, and books. Do I care? Do I keep wanting to know more?
I care about a lot of things. I care about the dog and the cat (in no particular order), I care about going to work, I care about my job and my systems. I care about the planet, and about humanity surviving whatever comes next.
I care about my family. I care about my few friends in real life, and about my circle of friends online, each one of you. I care about my housemate and best friend. I care so much about my wife. You people who I care about, I do love.
Caring means always wanting there to be a "what happened next". And knowing that stories have endings. And sometimes it means being willing to follow each story of a person's life, all the way there.
Wed, 30 Jul 2003the lesson of the moth
i was talking to a moth
why do you fellows
plenty of it he answered
and before i could argue him
but at the same time i wish
One of his "archy" poems. Taken from Garrison Keillor's Writer's Almanac for July 29.
Tue, 22 Jul 2003My New Comparative
You've all heard comparisons like "he's as subtle as a cannon" or "she has all the grace of an albatross" -- comparing to things that are not at all exemplary of the quality. I was thinking about this, and how it would be constructed for other qualities, and what things to compare to. I believe I have an answer.
Concussed fruit bats.
"He has all the social skills of a concussed fruit bat." "She's as suspicious as a concussed fruit bat." Think about it.
Tue, 15 Jul 2003Currents
I've got an appointment with one of the Nurse Practictioners for my pain doc this afternoon. With luck, a bit of jiggering of my fibro cocktail will let me shake some of the recent blahs and ows.
I'm in the process of applying for the full-time classified (read: union-backed) version of my job. I have something of an in, for obvious reasons (I built half the stuff the office runs on, that sort of thing), but it's still nerve-wracking.
Had an interesting dicussion with my boss after I got the time off for the medical appointment. Apparently my disability had come up in a conversation he'd had; he asked if people generally knew I had FMS, if I minded that people knew. I had to grin, and said, "I'd be more of an activist about it, but I just don't have the energy."
Got a good laugh.
Sat, 05 Jul 2003Walt Whitman
"This is what you shall do:
Thu, 03 Jul 2003Medicine is happy.
Weird quasihallucination from ambien. Everything that should look 2d looks 2d. Huh. Curvy.
La. La la narf.
Tue, 01 Jul 2003So, compatibility
Okay, yes, this interested me enough to finally look:
Thu, 26 Jun 2003Screams of the Dying Phone-Cam
As I mentioned before, I lost my Hiptop about two months back. My best guess was that it'd fallen from a pocket in the parking lot of the local mall and gotten run over or picked up.
These pictures, which I only noticed today, in the web-based desktop interface to the camera snaps, support the 'picked up' theory.
As it is, I should be getting my new (color!) hiptop delivered sometime this week. But these are just kind of eerie snaps.
Thu, 19 Jun 2003Brain Dominance Test
(Okay, perhaps the image of Pinky in leather should pass first.)
Taper, you are mildly left-hemisphere dominant while showing a slight preference for auditory processing. This overall combination seems to indicate a well-working blend of logic and judgment and organization, with sufficient intuition, perception and creativity to balance that dominance.
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